Ok it is happening again. It sort of feels like that point in the ocean when you are trying to get beyond the breaking waves but you are stuck at the part where they just keep hitting you in the face and making you snort salt water. You can turn your back but then you can't move forward. You can dive under but chances are you will come up in the same spot with the water hitting you smack in the face.
It is Monday and I accomplished so much over the weekend. But not enough. I am cooking my lunch at 7 am instead of walking the dogs and have no fruit in the house. I have an intern that is bugging the crap out of me this morning and Ican feel myself getting impatient. I have so much to do and there is not one since thing in the entire pile I want to get to. I have no busy work (except this blog) to distract me.
I want to go and leave and run and run and run and then maybe I can focus. I have to work on the Humana grant and I hate it. And I feel fat as a house since I did not exercise Sunday.
So with all the logic of myself I decide to:
1. avoid work and blog (clearly a good choice)
2. eat crap food so that I will be happy (or not most probably)
3. rinse and repeat and throw in looking at Facebook
Or I could work on Bel Inizio. That should be fun but it is not. Another wave just crashed.
In my heart I know my "stuff" is not worse or even as bad as other people's I just don't know how other people keep moving forward. They must have a way because otherwise nothing in this world would get done. Give it up all you successful robotoms!
Ok break to look at Facebook. Wonderful loves, great kids, spiritual breakthroughs, positive outlooks, bootstrap stories, and pithy quotes. Post from Theresa: Quit lying and go back to bed like the rest of wish we could do. Or share your rose colored glasses.
But wait! Its showtime! Put on the happy face. Love life. Cheers to all! Or if all else fails just get back to work. Yummy.